My 53 year old body’s adrenaline automatically kicks into gear…my 53 year old mind repeats, “Just do the next thing.”….and i walk through the scary, difficult, wild stuff and hold it together till the crisis has passed.
Then i crash. C R A S H.
In some of my crashes i have broken a finger.
In other collisions i have sprained my back and pulled a rib.
In the worst downward spirals i have smashed headfirst into the pavement, disjointing every bone in my body, and ripping the skin from my bones.
And then i’m stuck…stuck feeling the pain… of a bloody mess of me.
Crashes are okay with me. I know my body, my mind and my spirit need a fair chance to process, evaluate, feel it and regroup.
I know there is pain involved in a crash. I expect that. I allow that. I welcome that.
The pain means i’m alive, living and breathing. Thinking and feeling. Alive.
And i understand injury due to a crash…whether emotional or physical… requires time to heal.
I have proved the theory…. “Time is a healer” …. correct.
But what am i to do when the effects of my latest crash linger on past a reasonable time of recovery?
When my body is healing okay…but my mind “Doesn’t wanna do this anymore.”
When the pain of the past emergency collides with the heartache of today…producing a bonafide mess.
The best answer i have found for that dilemma is hidden in the pages of the BIBLE.
Tucked inside the Old Testament.
Wrapped up in the book of ISAIAH.
These verses drip with ageless Wisdom…straight from the mouth of GOD…that tells me to:
SHARE YOUR BREAD WITH THE POOR
HOUSE THE HOMELESS
COVER THE NAKED
FEED THE HUNGRY
TEND TO THE AFFLICTED
Sounds pretty much to me like….. “Kim, go help someone else.”
And listen to these benefits!
YOUR LIGHT WILL BREAK OUT LIKE THE DAWN
YOUR RECOVERY WILL SPRING FORTH SPEEDILY
YOUR DARKNESS WILL BE ILLUMINATED
THE LORD WILL GUIDE YOU
YOUR BONES WILL BE STRENGTHENED
YOU WILL BE REBUILT
So when the results of my latest crash lingerer on past the acceptable time of recovery, i turn to the well worn pages in my tattered BIBLE….and i re read out loud GODs plan for my complete healing.
A plan only my GOD could have invented.
A plan that if put into action will bring the release i’ve been looking for.
A plan that not only will bless my life but others.
A plan that if lived out would be an excellent way to spend the rest of my days.
Giving, giving giving……..
only to find……..
in the end……..
a beautiful bouquet…..